“Why Doesn’t My Doctor Know More?”

This is a complaint I see all the time in TS support forums (forae?) Why doesn’t my doctor know more about TS? Or about my tics? Or about medications? The answer: They’re human.

Med school only lasts for four years, followed by three to seven years of residency. During this time an aspiring doctor has to cram their head with every detail they can of human anatomy, cellular biology, congential conditions, neurological conditions, disease, trauma, perinatal health, geriatric health, birth complications, gastrointestinal complications, cardiovascular complications, respiratory complications, genitourinal complications… If I wrote down the full list it would be incredibly stupidly long, and wouldn’t even start to cover the actual information they need to remember about each.

All of this needs to get packed in there in only four years. Depending on where they do their residency they may never run into a single patient with TS. Even if they do, that may not be the chief complaint that brought them into contact with that patient. (An unresponsive trauma patient with TS looks exactly like an unresponsive trauma patient without TS.)

All of this means that unless a doctor specializes in neurological conditions their entire education on the topic of TS may consist of nothing more than a paragraph or two in their book of mental disorders. If they did their residency in an ER, a cardiothoracic surgical center, a dialysis center, or anything other than a neurology center or a psychiatric facility, that’s probably the last they’ll ever see of it until their first TS patient walks in the door.

Unfortunately a doctor who doesn’t know about TS will often come across as if they do, sometimes spouting patently false information. A common case of this is the general practitioner who scoffs when a patient asks if they might have TS, saying, “Well you’re not swearing uncontrollably! Obviously you don’t have Tourette’s!” As terrible as this sounds, it does happen. Here’s why:

During their schooling or training, every medical professional is told to appear confident. It’s drilled into them. It doesn’t matter if they’re a surgeon or a GP, a paramedic or an EMR. “Be confident.” I just finished my EMR re-certification, and I heard it several times during the course. “Be confident.”

The reason why this is drilled into us is that it helps keep patients calm. The last thing a victim of a car crash wants to hear is their EMT saying, “HOLY CRAP! That’s a LOT of blood!” What they need to hear is, “I’m an EMT. I’m going to do everything I can to help you.” Guaranteed the EMT is thinking about the blood, but outwardly they will appear calm, collected, and confident in their skills. It really works, and it can help keep patients from going into shock so it really is important.

Unfortunately the way this plays out in the doctor’s office is a doctor who proceeds with (apparent) confidence about something they may or may not even remember from when they were in school. From their standpoint it’s not a life-threatening condition, they’re not misdiagnosing anyone (remember, do no harm!), and didn’t they see something on Youtube about some guy who swore a lot?

Of course there are better ways to appear confident while still admitting to a patient that you need more information before you can render a diagnosis. But before you judge, ask yourself if you’ve ever done anything similar. Someone’s computer’s running slowly? Must be malware! (Actually it’s low on RAM, and the disk is 98% full.) A friend’s car is running rough? Must be the gas they’re using! (Actually their spark plugs are old and the air filter needs to be cleaned.) Your neighbor’s kid is annoying, and never stops making all those noises? Must be bad parenting! (Actually that’s a kid with TS.) It’s part of the human condition. You run with the information you have and hope for the best.

The good news is that most doctors are genuinely interested in what they do and won’t pull this kind of a stunt. It’s one thing to appear confident. It’s another entirely to refuse new knowledge. Most doctors are receptive if you offer them valid new information, even if it contradicts what they believe they know.

This is why it’s important to be your own advocate. If you know you’re seeing a new doctor about TS, bring material with you that you can give them. It helps if the material comes from a reputable source. The DSM is a good place to start since that’s what defines the diagnostic criteria. A general practitioner is unlikely to have a copy of the DSM in their office, though a psychologist, psychiatrist, or neurologist almost certainly will. Most libraries have the DSM in their collection, so copying out the pertinent sections is relatively straightforward. Even if you know the doctor has a copy of the DSM, bringing them a printout of the chapter on tic disorders can help.

Another good source of information is any of the national Tourette’s Syndrome association sites. The sites for the Tourette Association of America and Tourette Canada are excellent resources. Check the one for the country you live in. In addition to having information you can print and take with you to a doctor’s visit they may also be able to help you find specialists in your area who have experience with TS.

So what do you do about a doctor who’s not interested, or who refuses to read the material you bring? Nothing. Find another doctor. If you’re their first patient with TS and they’re not geeking out on the idea, there’s not much you can do to change their mind. Find a doctor who’s interested and start over.

Keep in mind that medical treatment of any sort, not just that related to TS, is in many ways a conversation between two people – the doctor and the patient. Any time that conversation starts to feel one sided, it’s time to move on.


Artistic Identity

In previous posts I’ve mentioned that I do photography and field recording. Each of these can be considered an artistic pursuit. I don’t think I’m there yet with field recording, but I think I’ve been there with photography for a while. A good bit of the photography I do, especially recently, has been what I like to call documentation photography – technical illustration, PR photography, or documenting the state of a system before work is done on it. But the bulk of the photography I do qualifies as artistic expression.

Unlock the Phone
Unlocking the Phone

I’ve seen statements from a number of artists who are autistic, or schizophrenic, or bipolar, or even ticcers like me, who describe how their art is impacted by these things, but I have a hard time seeing it in my own art. If you put my photographs next to those of someone without TS, you might be able to say, “That’s his,” or “That’s hers,” based on style, but I’m hard-pressed to look at mine and say, “That’s clearly a manifestation of the TS mindset.”

Can We Get There By Laser Light?
Can We Get There By Laser Light?

Which makes me wonder: Does my TS impact my art at all? Or am I too artistically inhibited to allow it to come to the fore? Is there some third possibility I’m not seeing? Does a person’s art have to focus on their condition in order for them to say, “My condition impacts how I approach art”? Or can it simply be something that lurks in the background and comes out when the artist goes out to play?

Sand Play for Two
Sand Play

I know my OCD has an impact on the technical aspects of how I go about doing photography. Years of doing large format film photography and reveling in the meticulous, painstaking approach it requires led me to the conclusion that a certain amount of obsessive mindset can be a good thing. But that doesn’t mean it has an impact on why I do it or what I photograph.

No Need For Shoes

No Need for Shoes

I may have found a clue in the statement of a group whose goal is to, “Help artists express their angst and spread awareness and knowledge to others through the many mediums of art.” The problem is, I don’t consider myself an angsty person, and “angst” is not how I’d describe my relationship with Tourette’s Syndrome or art. Curious? Driven? Odd at times? Yes. But angst? Not really.

If anything, I do art so I can play. Like any game, sometimes it’s intense and sometimes it’s whimsical. Sometimes it’s neither. I know my art does absolutely nothing to raise awareness about TS or OCD, but that’s not its goal. Maybe that’s what I’m missing.

Fine Guidance System

Fine Guidance System

And maybe that’s ok. Maybe it’s ok simply to do art as a way of saying, “The world? It’s not what you think.”